I received an email from my friend, who is a 34-year-old monk from Thailand, inviting me to join him for meditation on Sunday afternoon. It’s a free activity open to anyone interested, so I email back that I’d love to. He texts me the address using his iPhone. I use my prehistoric cellphone that has no Internet capability to thank him again.
I enter his home, slip off my shoes and seat myself upon a mat on the floor. The monk uses his laptop to play some soothing Thai music. I hear the click of the television, and the forty-inch flat screen comes to life. The sound of melodious Buddhist incantations commences. I close my eyes and adjust my legs into a lotus position, sitting crossed legged and placing my right ankle upon my upper left thigh. I straighten my spine and fold one hand over the other. I fidget at first, unaccustomed to sitting so still. I inhale and exhale deeply, my chest rising and falling slowly. Two monks, adorned in blazing orange garb, are seated behind me and begin to chant in ancient Hindu. The words are foreign, but my body relaxes to the powerful, esoteric mantra. Meditating is going to be easy, I foolishly think to myself. Then the television powers off, and silence consumes the room – an hour of complete silence. Tranquil meditation turns into a civil war on the inside. I struggle to keep my eyes closed, and I fight to keep my body properly erect.
Expecting to find inner peace, I am surprised when I am met with chaos instead. I battle to block the barrage of nonsensical, random waves of thoughts that continuously flood my mind. What do I have for homework tonight? I need a haircut. White Pillowcase. Mascara. Abalone. A fierce wind blows, and the waves surge. My stream of thought transforms into a roaring sea. Thoughts rise, crash and break loudly against the shore of my inner consciousness. New ones form to take their place. I can’t make the waters ebb – the high tide and the current are too strong to control. I yield to its force and let my thoughts run wild. The hour ends, and I leave perplexed at my utter inability to calm my mind.
I email the monk and tell him that I want to come again. My inbox lights up with a new message in bold. I click to read his response. “See you next Sunday – sent via my iPad.”